(a few too many) people have asked me whether or not I will publish Blackbird, and so confidently said that they will buy a copy if I do. All my responses have been no, because the quality at which I have done the entirety of volume one:

1. varies too much in style.
2. are saved in low resolution/quality formats.
3. are done in weird, non-standard page sizes.

So even if I want to, I won’t be able to get it in print.

Not unless I redo most of it.

I did think about it for a bit, because being able to have my own creation in a book form (I really wanted an artbook before, but my art changes too much and I become unsatisfied with them very, very soon after) is just too tempting. After looking back at volume 1 for a little, I thought that I have to redo at least up to page 70 or so if I want to print it off without regretting. Luckily most of volume 1 is done in pencil, so for higher resolution files I just need to rescan (omg all 170 pages!!) and pencil-tone the last 10-20 pages that I digitally toned, just for consistancy. But the redoing part… that’s gonna take a couple of months of dedication, and as much as I want to do this for the cool factor, I personally despise redoing things, especially drawing and writing.

So eventually I thought I could get this done in the summer.

It was really funny how a number of inquiry e-mails/notes could get my hopes up so much. I always have crazy ideas, but I am always afraid to be ambitious, because it comes with a sharp fragrance of egocentrism. (whether or not that’s a word….) But I’ll never succeed if I never try…

so maybe it’s time for me to start making a fool of myself.