I thought of deleting my DA journals once and for all because I don’t use it anymore; but I ended up reading my old journals and decide against it. I wrote so frequently back then, with uber long and “complicated” entries full of the randomest thoughts that hit me when my brain seizured, and they were interesting reads (only cus I wrote them myself).

There had been funny 1-line “wisdoms” and 10-page definitions of life. I had fun rereading my 1337 entry, as well as my super political standpoints. Most of those were all written when I was still stuck in grade 12… surprisingly not much was actually based on stuff that happened in school, which makes me think that, in comparison to the update rate and content of my journals now, actual schooling made me think more. Right now all my journals consist of nothing deep down, but mere descriptions of stuff that happened that were funny.

That’s right… everything that’s important to me right now should be funny.

So many of my previous journals were anger-filled, feeling injust or depressed, or generally emo. I was just thinking that rant journals were stupid a couple of weeks ago, but now that I looked at my own journal I saw how I contributed to the category of teen-rants :) Maybe it was the “stress” I had back then. Most likely it’s because I moved out… not having to face my parents everyday eased out a lot of conflicts between us. Family relationships improved because they had less exposure to my badness since I went to university. That probably changed my mood a lot (to the positive end).

but I think this is probably also because I like to type… or write out what I think into long elaborate paragraphs such as this post, even though I am generally too lazy to sometimes. Sometime last year I started to be more careful about what I publicly announce to protect my reputation. Maybe it’s a good thing… but sometimes it’s fun to see the stupid things I’ve done in the past, or to watch myself change.