I thought of deleting my DA journals once and for all because I don’t use it anymore; but I ended up reading my old journals and decide against it. I wrote so frequently back then, with uber long and “complicated” entries full of the randomest thoughts that hit me when my brain seizured, and they were interesting reads (only cus I wrote them myself).
There had been funny 1-line “wisdoms” and 10-page definitions of life. I had fun rereading my 1337 entry, as well as my super political standpoints. Most of those were all written when I was still stuck in grade 12… surprisingly not much was actually based on stuff that happened in school, which makes me think that, in comparison to the update rate and content of my journals now, actual schooling made me think more. Right now all my journals consist of nothing deep down, but mere descriptions of stuff that happened that were funny.
That’s right… everything that’s important to me right now should be funny.
So many of my previous journals were anger-filled, feeling injust or depressed, or generally emo. I was just thinking that rant journals were stupid a couple of weeks ago, but now that I looked at my own journal I saw how I contributed to the category of teen-rants :) Maybe it was the “stress” I had back then. Most likely it’s because I moved out… not having to face my parents everyday eased out a lot of conflicts between us. Family relationships improved because they had less exposure to my badness since I went to university. That probably changed my mood a lot (to the positive end).
but I think this is probably also because I like to type… or write out what I think into long elaborate paragraphs such as this post, even though I am generally too lazy to sometimes. Sometime last year I started to be more careful about what I publicly announce to protect my reputation. Maybe it’s a good thing… but sometimes it’s fun to see the stupid things I’ve done in the past, or to watch myself change.
I’ll succeed in making a proper-looking poster one day.
I guess i’ll stick with this title even though a lot of people thought it was unoriginal/cheezy. but so is Blackbird, so they match! I’m trying to paint by basecolour refinement instead of lineart->fill colour->shade in. a lot of people do it this way and it reduces a lot of lighting problems so I thought it’d be helpful to try to learn this…
The glowing white blobs are angels; the yellow crap is fire; the place is a church. The lil person is Eqin.
alriiight despite what quite a few people would probably say (along the lines of “lol, is she making drama for herself as publicity :)” ) I’m gonna post this anyways. My first hater that transcends simple deviation comment hate: my first ever forum hate thread!
http://forum.deviantart.com/devart/general/576866/
I didn’t think it was any more than an average art theft with an accusation bonus at first when a copy of my pic was submitted. Despite calling me an art thief, he didn’t take the effort to copy the big version of my picture and submit it, and submitted the thumbnail instead… forgot to erase my sig too. I was kind of surprised that some people think that it’s self-arisen drama that I made to publicize myself. how many pagesviews am I gonna get from… say… sympathetic comments that come from people that saw my art stolen? so like he got 50 views maybe. I get 50 more people commenting on my page saying “aww poor shilin”? I believe I am making a big fuss out of this, but I only joke other people; I don’t take jokes lightly :l certain individuals would know my horrible temper when I get insulted.
So I turned into a laughing stock as people think I am grabbing attention in that thread.
……. and I’d also be so mad if he succeeds in the end against all odds. In getting me banned with verbal-attack proof.
*would rather be ignored forever than given negative attention that I am not responsible for*
http://animenorth.com/design.php :O
If I can make it I think I’ll try out and hope to win. It will be enough of an excuse for me to go to Anime North. IF it doesn’t conflict with my 230958 midterms, juries and papers x(
