EXAMS ARE DONE! first year of university is done done done :D I got into the performance program! I was so happy that my adjudicator thought my audition/jury went very well. He said the most hilarious thing when telling my piano teacher about my audition (he said he almost fell out of his chair when he was listening to me; I didn’t know whether I should be happy or whether he was exaggerating 2039849289 times too much). I didn’t think it went that well, but if he thinks so, who cares about my own opinion!

Too bad I can only find out my marks in June because I studied very hard for these finals, something I don’t normally do. But I feel ok about them and I think I’ll be fine. The the writing part of the history exam was hardcore; I stayed for all 3 hours and wrote through all 3 hours. I guess I’m not that great in lit courses, though I think that went ok too. I don’t know if I could get 10% better than my midterm and receive the bonus though.

After the exam I went out for dinner, and came back to pack. I took a whole night to pack rofl;;; I had so much stuff. And it was all dusty so it was gross; it made my side of the room all clouded and stuff (I wore a nice sweater, white pants and forgot to tie up my hair ;[ ) Nonetheless, I was surprised that I actually managed to organize everything without help, considering how little chores I do whiel being a spoiled brat. I decided to put away all my useless photocopied music and use the back side for sketching to save paper, and got a huge stack of several hundred sheets that can last me all summer and beyond. I didn’t think I would have that much stuff to bring home despite knowing that I am moving out of residence; the poor Corolla was all heaved at the back. (driving that thing is sometimes irritating because it has no power)

It’s so good to be home <3 spacious environment, good food, fast net, nice people (not that rez people aren’t nice, they are just a bit annoying at times) and my cats! They haven’t forgotten me. Shame I can only stay for 2 more days; my plane for China leaves on saturday morning.

So now I am switching to thinking about my manga. I thought about how to print it before many times, and looked up different methods and tried to draw to accomodate that; but I think I’ll just give up now. All printing services that provide bleed printing requires bleed margin, something I don’t create while drawing the pages. It also has more areas like trim and safety, making it difficult to use space as I wish. I attempted to draw a page normally first, then create a bleed and move some text afterwards, but it took too long, especially the bleed part. So I won’t be concerning myself with those specs and just make the manga without a bleed; if I am lucky enough I will still be able to print it. If not, nothing can be helped :P

And for those of you who read all of the above rambling, here’s a little bonus for you! I was using the computer last night and my mom started putting some things on my head and told me to leave them on until I sleep. Without checking what she did, I agreed. I regretted hours later when I tried to get them off and this happened LOL. I didn’t think it was humanly possible to shape my hair so easily. Some curls are so cute too; just like the dolls everyone draw.

That’s all. hopefully I’ll write more in China :P until then!

This is keeping me sane from all the studying I’ve been doing, which is also going great! I finished all the readings for Tuesday’s exam (and did nothing about Sunday’s) so I can be sure I will have time to review all that I can review in detail. I think. Back to the layout; I’m planning to write the main pages, as well as pages that need chronic updates, such as the gallery page, in php and do most styling in an imported css file, so later layout changes will not need entire renovation of all pages, and I won’t have to make 120948203 changes if when I find a flaw in the main layout.

I think I am obsessive compulsive… all my layouts look the same. o well.

The paper’s too small, so I drew their lower body out of porportion, and now they look short :[ *goes back to studying*

I haven’t had a chance to draw much lately; so this lineart was done many weeks ago, and only partly coloured today. I had so much trouble picking colours; I procrastinate on colour planning, and the specific colours that the character HAS to have (like eye and hair colour) and SHOULDN’T have (for various reasons) didn’t really help my colour choice much. I guess this is the consequence. ): On the other hand, I’ve been so on work craze for the past few days that I had that feverish feeling again when I go to sleep, just like a couple of weeks ago when my schedule was jampacked. I read a few hundred pages of textbook text (that’s incredible for me because I am ever so slow on reading) and practiced so much. At times like these I start to stop caring and lose motivation to do anything, even stuff I like to do, and just finish whatever that’s at hand. I would start questioning what I felt over the past few days, only failing to feel anything at all. K something happier. Church people are all so nice :) I got an accompaniment job for an Easter service at an Anglican church my friend goes to; everyone there are so caring and bright and cheerful that I feel guilty taking their payment. (especially after hearing that they had a bake sale or something to gather funds to pay me…) They gave me a card and a bouquet right before the performance; it made me feel so happy and loved. Now that I think about it, everytime I come home from their practice I would be talkative and cheerful instead of passive like any other time. But, no, sorry, that won’t make me turn Christian.

Oh yes, songs! I like Rurutia’s singing style; too bad all of her songs are sappy. I like 2 of them though; Chou no Mori and Hallelujah. Nice songs :D I can repeat them all day and piss my roommate off horray.

I also got this weirdo program from a friend… that lets me change music. So I made a fast version of flow from Naruto (it sounded like a kids band rofl) and a clip of the super slow version of crawling in the dark by hoobastank. It was so addictively fun x)

So like, now I want to see if I can get a copy of Blackbird in print when I have enough pages that I am satisfied with. The ones I’ve been looking at is Lulu and CafePress. unfortunately the only size of printed books they offer that fits my pages is 6.625″ x 10.25″, which is kinda whack because it’s huge. The size I drew it on is 5.5×8.5, but I couldn’t find anywhere with that size (a little bigger/smaller is fine with me) available. which sucks ass.

Some people may suggest offering my story/manga to an actual publisher for publishing, but I don’t want to do that because:
1. I have no confidence in my work.
2. I don’t want someone else to own this.
3. I don’t want to make it publicly commercial.

My mom has a friend that makes books (yes she’s THAT cool), and she had been telling my mom that she would make me an artbook if I want. So I guess if I want personal copies of Blackbird, I can ask her for that as well. It’s just that I was gonna make it available for ppl who wants to buy copies of it also. Oh well. *continues looking for online services*