This semester SUCKED. That’s all. But at least today was the last day of class. Sucks I am in music because I still have to go back daily to practice until my jury next Monday.
I also locked myself out today by accident and both of my roommates were not home. Lucky half an hour later I found a manager to open the door for me, because as we speak now, 4 hours later, neither of them are back. I could’ve been sitting outside in that claustrophobia-inducing hallway right now doing absolutely nothing except for maybe considering breaking myself.
A friend returned from a trip today also, I’m supposed to be happy about it but something happened and now I feel like shit like I have before.
I probably also lost weight this semester even though I tried so hard at times to eat more. I guess too much stuff got in the way and I just can’t discipline myself any better.
I am also not sure if I’m looking forward to going home either; less chores, more potential parental relation problems. In all honesty I’d rather do the chores. I’ve been treating my parents like shit recently whenever we had to talk because I’ve been pissy; I regret most of it because they didn’t really do anything intentionally to bother me just because they don’t know what’s going on, but I just can’t help to get annoyed by what they do. It is best for now for me to stay away from them so I don’t say and do hurtful things, but even staying away makes them feel like something’s wrong and worry. They just want to help but I guess I can’t convince them that all they’re doing is giving me more problems.
I’m totally running in circles!
{ Susant }
Life’s full of crap like that. But the only thing you can be sure of is that the sun will shine and the night will come. If you focus too much on the negatives you’ll be constantly dragged down and never make any headway. Be positive and give things a chance, because you might be pleasently surprised. (this was not ripped from a fortune cookie)
P.S Congrats on the new DD
{ ryumi }
yeah, I feel you. I think alot of people are finding themselves in a similar situation to you right now, school’s-a-bitch and some parental issues; so no worries – you’re not alone!
Personally I think that it’s better to tackle a problem like this head on, this kind of thing does have a solution – but I suppose it’s hard to find when you’ve already got alot of things in your head. Discussing complicated issues with close friends is a handy tip, and it works wonders. Don’t be afraid to crap – that’s what friends are for.
Ah, parents. Try talking to them first, they’re bound to give you a little more space if you be plain honest with ‘em. but if that hasn’t already worked, I guess the best advice anyone can offer is that you keep your head up and to study hard – it’s better giving it your all while you’re still alive, like someone told me some time ago: we all only live once! Try limiting your mindset to focus on what’s most important to you and what’s going to get your beyond; it’s what most elders say. Cliché, I know, but it’s got some truth to it.
kick some ass on that Piano dude. Practicing can be a big pain (i sympathize since I’m preparing for Grade 7 exams lol), but keep pushing yourself; you’d be surprised what abilities lies within you – but to unlock them, you have to drag it out with mega amounts of effort. But in the end, depending on how you look at it, I’m sure it’ll all be worth it.
persistence is the key!
much luck to you – try to use these holidays to recuperate and catch up on anything you’ve missed.
{ R e a f u }
Aww I really hope things with you and your family are able to solve themselves. The holidays are supposed to be a time when you can come together and enjoy a little peace, and you may actually make things more stressful if you don’t pop in at least :(. Here’s hoping your christmas goes well :)!
{ Piyo }
:hugs: Congratulations on getting through first semester. I know, I’M GLAD that it’s over LOL
I understand where you’re coming at, regarding not being sure if you want to go home for the upcoming holidays. I have the same thoughts right now, ’cause of what I heard from my mom–well she was talking to me dad, and I wasn’t suppose to have heard, since it was the dead of night, but it was something that I didn’t think they would mind about me so much =\ So now…I always have this guilty feeling whenever I think of going back home for the holidays. I hope you’ll be able to find some peace with your parents though~♥
{ Midorishina }
D: Poor Shilin-sama… *gives you a big hug*
The locking out incident reminded me of the time I locked my whole family out of the hotel. We needed to take a heck lot of stuff from our car so we made two trips. During the first trip, my dad left the key on the counter and – having thought that my father had it – I closed the door, which, unfortunately, had an auto-lock mechanism on it. You can imagine the lecture my dad gave me afterwards; absolutely horrid. So you’re not the only one Shilin-sama >:
I’m supposed to lose weight…though I’ve failed, I’ve gained. BUT EATING LESS IS BAD FOR YOU SHILIN! D: PICK UP THE HABIT OF SNACKING! YES, SNACKING! DDD: IT DOESN’T REQUIRE YOU TO FORCE YOU TO EAT MORE AND/OR TRY NOT TO MISS MEALS (le gasp! don’t tell me you do that??? D: ) That’s pretty much why I had extra fat around my belly D:
Everyone’s relationship is bad with their parents; especially at this time when you’re making big life decisions and all of that. Maybe you should e-mail them regularly; feelings can’t be transferred through e-mails; unless you’re deliberately rude. And you can calm down a bit while thinking what to write. You can write well Shilin-sama, so it wouldn’t be a problem :)
Everything will get better with time~~
Don’t worry; be Happy! :D
{ Tomokii }
aaaah *hugs* I live with my parents (my room = their room too, only with a divider in between), I am home 12/7 but they never seem to understand stuff too. xD Things that are “help” become “headaches/problems” and “quiet explanation” becomes “answering back”, haha! It’s hard since we’re…well different people despite being related by blood. I think it gets better by time though, with the little misunderstands being litte steps forward to “understand each other”, so I hope it’ll be better for you in the near future. : )