Hello snow

November 17, 2011 9:36 PM

It snowed a bit today! Not that I want any until all my books are shipped but WINTER IS FINALLY HERE. And that flower patch I took a photo of just 2 weeks ago? dead HAHA


And I finished the last of the pages! I still have to put the book together and finish extra content/the cover. But man I toned at the speed of light, 12 pages in 2 days LOL;;; I think it’s because I inked them all, then lettered them all, flatted them all, and toned them all. It cut out a lot of of the getting into gear bullshit that I had to go through in the past. I just might consider doing this for future pages, but I will have to wait a while and then read it again to see if the quality suffered from it. I can’t quite tell right now from the 2.5 months of manga marathon LOL.

Ending with some more reflection (:

I’ve been researching ancient chinese emperors for designs for rae, in the end my searches led me back to chinese martial arts tv series that I’ve watched a lot as a kid. I loved them and most of the ones that were produced in mainland china had nice costume designs that looked both authentic and pleasant. But despite watching them a lot, I didn’t really take in any of the stuff I could’ve learned from them. It reminded me of how I always believed that learning is mostly an attitude thing. I rarely ever focus on how some people are born slower than others, less aware, so to speak. I always like to believe that environment and nurture is the most important difference between smart and dumb people. But even then, if you’re wired to not pay attention to your surrounding, even if you’re dumped in a foreign land you won’t learn its culture, just like how watching all those martial art shows did not teach me anything useful in how ancient chinese clothing looked when I was small. Some kids have better memory, some have worse, but the ones who are better are usually just more alert about what they’re seeing, consciously or subconsciously.

But even attention is a habit! There is enormous room for conscious effort to bring yourself to the best of your potentials.  If you aren’t used to noticing things that may benefit you, force yourself to describe everything you see to yourself in your mind; after a while, no matter how long it will take, it will be like breathing to you. Maybe it’s because everything I do nowadays is drawing related, I’ve finally begun to think about everything in terms of what it can contribute to my art. This is something I rarely ever do back when I’m more focused on how to make more zeny on RO and how to play certain songs, and it shows a lot in the content of my old CGs and how poorly I understood the stuff I drew. Walking down the streets thinking about homework instead of walking down the streets thinking about a drawing of street life, you’re bound to notice different things.

I believe myself to be a slow person, I take in and realize things slowly and often late. But in the end I do realize it and learn it because I force myself to. If a painter has an autopilot in their mind on what colours and texture to use to create a brilliant effect, then I will spend 10x the time following my notebook manual by checking every checklist, arranging and layering all the colours step by step, trying every possibility until I find the one that works. If a musician has an autopilot in their mind on how to do overall dynamics and rubato of any piece they listen to, then I’ll follow what’s on the score, record myself and listen to it time after time, adjust my treatment until I find one that works, then practice it repeatedly until I remember it. I know that people are smart because they can notice, see, APPLY a lot more connections between things we otherwise don’t relate, so if I’m not wired to think like this, I will figure out their method, grind it into my brain and consciously MAKE it a part of my living breathing self. It takes a lot of motivation and self control, especially if this is concerning a profession you don’t give a flying fuck about, but practicing and achieving this kind of conscious self control is completely doable for anyone in one way or another, and having this kind of self control at your disposal will help you in a lot more ways than simply attaining success in a field of profession.


  • "until I find the one that works. "

    This is where talent comes into the equation – most people aren't able to identify "what works." I have an extremely difficult time creating a mental picture of something; most good artists can at least imagine what they want to see, even if it takes a lot of work to get there. The same goes for musicians. Unlike art, I do know how I want my music to sound, so I have a much easier time getting my cello to sound the way I want it to. Many people can't do this, and need to study things like exactly when and how slow/fast to use vibrato (if you've ever listened to kids learning a stringed instrument, many may be technically skilled at young age, practice hours a day, but use vibrato in a "robotic" way).

    Very few people can draw something the way they want to from scratch or sight-read new music as they'd like to perform it. That's more a matter of being a savant than just being smart or talented. While most people can learn to technically draw well through motivation and hard work, they can't simply drill into their heads the ability to create a mental image of what they want. People who are successful in any creative profession usually have both talent and the motivation/time* necessary to succeed.

    * There's a reason why most great classical musicians come from well-off families. Not only is there the cost of lessons and instruments, but someone also needs the huge amount of free time necessary to practice many hours a day. It would also be very difficult (though not impossible) to become a great artist if someone also needs to earn living expenses or support family members.

    • while I don't claim that there aren't stupid people who will never be able to grasp the arts, it is exactly this what works mentality that stops a lot of people from trying because they think they don't have talent. What I felt worked 10 years ago is totally not what I feel that works today. you can say I would have had no idea what worked back then because what I thought was right was actually not–as it has shown in my old drawings that I used to be very satisfied with. this is what I feel can be changed by habit of thinking and constructing an environment for yourself; sharpening your senses, so to say. Maybe at after a certain point in one's aging this will no longer be possible, but most of the time to a child, a teenager or a young adult, this is certainly possible; it may just take them 10 years of time rather than 1 year for someone who is more natural, just as how someone with more artistic talent could have improved as much as I have in 10 years in less than a year.

      However I do acknowledge the dropoff from a master of the instrument to someone who is simply good. I completely agree that when it comes to the best of the best, some things just cannot be achieved by certain people just because they don't have the feel for it and all we can do is look at perlman or horowitz in awe and find nothing that could bring us remotely close to their level.

  • Ruina

    Congrats on finishing volume 2!! *_* That is quite some dedication to be marathoning for 2.5 months. Great job! /pats

    I love your reflection/inspirational posts! :D I always used to love your work for your attention to detail and texture rendering, among several other things, so I was always under the impression that you were a great learner and observer from years ago (never would have guessed that you were more focused on making more zeny haha).

    I still completely suck at the applying part (need to practice drawing things more orz), but I hope I'm getting better at noticing things! Starting a habit of it was like stepping into the point of no return, in the sense that before I used to just appreciate things around me for their beauty (sky, animals, flowers, buildings, etc), but now I go all wide-eyed and try to absorb all the colors, texture, think about brushes and strokes, and just become super analytical and critical, that in the end I forget to look at things just for the sake of enjoying looking at them… ;; You should have seen me when I went to the museum and looked at paintings, my face was like 2 inches away from the canvas if I was allowed to get that close to it fffff

  • A.Hormell

    Congrats on finishing CP 2. Good luck with putting it together and doing the finishing touches.

    And this post really does help on an inspirational level. I don't consider myself a pro at drawing or writing (since I do both). Escpecially right now when it comes to trying to draw cars.
    But I noticed now that when I'm paying more attention to certain details about the cars around me, I can see where I'm going wrong in trying to draw them. So now I'm breaking down what I see into shapes and form (since that's how I draw animals). My usual few step process has turned into an overload of steps. Simple sketches has become projects for me.
    Which I honestly don't mind, but I guess this puts us in the same boat when it comes to breaking everything down and doing it in steps then doing everything all over again.

  • This post…this is one of those inspirational posts that should be required reading for beginner artists and ones stuck in a rut. I honestly thought that my attention to detail was a bad thing when it came to art, especially because I sometimes get bogged down in sketching/inking/coloring something until it looks "perfect". Though I have found in the last couple of years, it is that paying attention to little details of outfits, body shapes, what's in fashion that has made my art start looking half descent as opposed to noobish and derpy lol. So hooray to breaking things down into steps!

    And congrats on finishing book 2 of CP!

  • Haha, you're a little like me… Ever since I took an interest in drawing, I've been living in hyper-sensitivity mode. It's become a subconcious habit. I can't walk by anything without trying to see what I can learn and how I can benefit from it, art-wise, anyway. I stare at absolutely everything and attempt to note down the form and all the details of the subject. For example, at any given time I can find myself intent on the folds of clothes, and the movement and positions of fingers and feet and shoes.

    I don't know if it's helped much; but doing this has certainly increased my awareness of my surroundings and the world. Seriously though, if only I could focus like that for everything…

    Anyway, congrats on finishing the extra CP pages! What do you plan to do now? Will you change the update schedule, then?

    YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE A MASSIVE CRUSH ON RAE COS HE'S SO DAMN PRETTY. Even with those fluffy-ear-things. 8D

    • I have a lot more stuff to do involving putting the book together, and writing the next book will take a while too, I will probably not be able to draw any pages for at least a month, so I won't change update schedule until I can again otherwise I'll just run out of pages XD

    • AAAH NONONO I MEANT DES! DES!!!! *facepalm*

      If you keep drawing long-haired pretty boys I might just keel over and die of happiness.

      Oh, okay! Good that you now have plenty of buffer pages; I'm just glad that there won't be any more infinite hiatuses. :')

      Will the next book be started after Chapter 6 concludes? (And how's the cover going for Vol 2?)