Archive for category: Music


promise to give me your all

from listening to the everybody dies theme

I don’t look for music to draw to, but when I do come across a song that gets to me I will have this unstoppable NEED to puke my heart onto a canvas and it feels sooooo good to do :I It’s interesting how there is really only one part of the song that hit me and the rest is kind of not very good, but man is that melody well done and hard hitting it almost feels like a waste to be preceded and followed by the rest of the piece. It’s pretty much true for most songs and drawings and stories; it doesn’t have to be made of gold and diamond all the way through, but you better make sure there is one thing that claws right into your viewers’ kokoro and make them remember

I’ve been cleaning up my messy ~artist apartment~ for guests next week, and when I went through my pile of sheet music from university from accompanying singers or just pieces I played in school, I found the last page of this piece that I had no recollection of until I saw what’s on the page… I only remembered it being a song I really enjoyed playing but I had no idea what it was LMAO Q_Q thank god for vague googling I actually managed to find it. I’m not quite sure how I can completely forget about pieces that I absolutely enjoy playing and practiced for like a year or half a year :I

Anyway Shostakovich prelude and fugue #24! I wanted to relearn a fugue and I expected it to be a bach one but IT’S CLEARLY FATE THAT I FOUND THIS ONE AGAIN INSTEAD

The number of pieces I want to learn just kind of pile up like scraps that I don’t have time to finish lol ;_;

I drew something

I was going for a brushy black and white line drawing of my gf, then I spontaneously forgot about the brush part and decided to try out Sakimichan’s brushes instead for simple colours. they’re sooooo goooood OUO I tried to make it look like her as much as possible but I’m pretty bad at noticing people’s distinct features so it’s not as close as I’d like it to be )’: I feel like drawing a matching version of myself but I have no idea how to make myself look interesting in this style

I’ve been doing some commissions too and they’re all NDA so I can’t show them ): here’s a ridiculous and unrecognizable booty crop because of reasons


And here’s a song that I loved a long time ago that I forgot about and came across this week c:


I’ve been CGing lots!! Here are some wips :D


I finished this piece! I’m really happy with it, though not sure if I will post it during volume 3 release or if I will save it for later.

And also finished this once-wip of a commission for a friend’s game (:

I spent the majority of my time on the first picture, so I haven’t drawn any more scraps. I was looking through my song folder for old songs to listen to, and found Sometime around midnight by the airborne toxic event! I love the song and feels so very satisfying to listen to and sing along to, so I decided to draw something to it. My rough sketches are getting rougher and less presentable by the piece because I rush through them so much LOL… I always feel like I’m wasting time and want to be done with them as fast as possible ;-;
You just have to see her
You just have to see her
You just have to see her
You just have to see her

You just have to see her
You know that she’ll break you in two


I’ve been listening to this for a few days. I really like the song and although I was pretty adverse to the crazy echoey bass or subwoofer or whatever it is LOL… I got used to it and it’s just great ;-; It only has one 4-bar phrase but the composer added ONE CHORD for the fast section and suddenly the rhythm group is distinctly different and I was just like whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! I’m really bad with rhythm I’m not sure why, I’ve been learning to play this piece but I just couldn’t get the right drive in my mind just because I can’t make beats on a piano ;-; anyway why am I unable to shut up IT’S A GOOD SONG IT GIVES ME FEELS and inspires many a vision my head, one of which I drew
veloce’s life is a literal perpetual battle, I imagine her constantly wishing for the end so she can rest and have some peace, not even in the I want to escape everything sense, but real closure and finale since she sees everything she has to do as obligations. Even if she’s incapacitated, it’s only a moment before she has to get back up and go back to where she left off.

In other news I started taking this 7-day treatment for h pylori and man these antibiotics are scary. I wonder if I should’ve been prescribed a lighter dose because of how small I am; an hour or so after I take the meds my heart would beat faster than normal and I’d feel as if my body is fighting a virus, and it’d last a few hours before it’s diluted enough and my body would calm down. It also makes me really hungry for some reason LOL… I expected to lose appetite since it’s killing everything in my stomach, but now half the day I’m starving. I really hope this is a good sign and that it would help me finally be able to gain weight, or just don’t k/o me before the meds are done ;__;

going to enjoy another few days before returning to finishing the few commissions I promised for friends so I can move on.