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break and stuff

I DREW MORE RANDOM USELESS SHIT
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I was going for a continuation of the last scrap where the battle is over and the soldiers on veloce’s side are doing some damage control, but I was drawing the pic in an attempt to finish it really quick in order to make a slow video, so I didn’t really get down stuff I wanted to add to it. In here she’s kind of a leader who’s a slave to people who depend on her; I was going to draw a soldier reporting to vel or something instead of her staring at nothing to convey her role in the battle, but I’m so bad at picking the right angle and line of vision that would fit everything nicely without taking hours changing my mind, so I ended up not doing it Q_______Q. IT’S ALSO LIKE ENTIRELY PURPLE LOL I use magenta/purple shades sooooooo much nowadays I need to fix myself, but as a break I just didn’t care anymore and just did whatever ]:

I really want to finish these pictures in all honesty, even though most of them are not print friendly, and make a sort of themed artbook (war? or like that journey shit I did idk… most of my imagination that’s mostly canon but disjunct from the storyline have something to do with wars in Maelstrom) with illustrations of different facets of it that doesn’t necessary convey a continuous story. maybe I can make it a pet project cus it’ll probably be boring to people unlike an artbook of beautiful pictures and popular subjects, and I actually have to put effort into making everything coherent or even write meaningful blurbs to go along the theme LOL. IT ALREADY SOUNDS LIKE IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN just like other stories I try to develop in the past alongside CP. Variety is so important in business but I guess I’m just too OCD for it ):

In any case here’s the video I made with it; it’s only 2x speed so for those who are interested, you can actually see what I’m doing unlike the 25x speed videos I post HAHA

And duck from dinner with Jenny tonight since she’s leaving tomorrow ;; I’m not even sure if it was duck because that was a giant block of boneless meat and it had turkey-like tendon strings
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break


I’ve been listening to this for a few days. I really like the song and although I was pretty adverse to the crazy echoey bass or subwoofer or whatever it is LOL… I got used to it and it’s just great ;-; It only has one 4-bar phrase but the composer added ONE CHORD for the fast section and suddenly the rhythm group is distinctly different and I was just like whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! I’m really bad with rhythm I’m not sure why, I’ve been learning to play this piece but I just couldn’t get the right drive in my mind just because I can’t make beats on a piano ;-; anyway why am I unable to shut up IT’S A GOOD SONG IT GIVES ME FEELS and inspires many a vision my head, one of which I drew
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veloce’s life is a literal perpetual battle, I imagine her constantly wishing for the end so she can rest and have some peace, not even in the I want to escape everything sense, but real closure and finale since she sees everything she has to do as obligations. Even if she’s incapacitated, it’s only a moment before she has to get back up and go back to where she left off.

In other news I started taking this 7-day treatment for h pylori and man these antibiotics are scary. I wonder if I should’ve been prescribed a lighter dose because of how small I am; an hour or so after I take the meds my heart would beat faster than normal and I’d feel as if my body is fighting a virus, and it’d last a few hours before it’s diluted enough and my body would calm down. It also makes me really hungry for some reason LOL… I expected to lose appetite since it’s killing everything in my stomach, but now half the day I’m starving. I really hope this is a good sign and that it would help me finally be able to gain weight, or just don’t k/o me before the meds are done ;__;

going to enjoy another few days before returning to finishing the few commissions I promised for friends so I can move on.

this calls for a celebration

This is going to be a long post since I didn’t dare to blog during home stretch Q__Q for some reason blog posts take forever to write, I suspect a correlation between that and my poor communication skills + tendency to talk forever once I start. In any case, as of Thursday or Friday book 3 of CP is completely finished! The proof was made and approved yesterday so it is off to printing right now :D There’s still a healthy amount of extra time to account for any delays so I think I will be able to make it to have it at everyone’s doorsteps by xmas. I can’t believe I did it HAHA because the schedule I calculated out in advance was pretty ridiculous at about 10 pages of inking ALONE per week, and still the estimated completion date was Oct 1 for inks only. Somehow I managed to get hella ahead in the last 2 weeks of inking and finished inking, toning, and preflighting by my self imposed deadline. I’m so lucky to have the help of linguistically competent friends like sepia, kris, and juby, to help me proofread ahead of time during the rush, though at this point I’m still worried there would be problems none of us caught BUT WHATEVER it’s too late now.

I also managed to force myself to go back and fix some of the things I wasn’t happy with rather than winging them, like faces, poses and paneling. They were minor and I was really tempted to ignore them since I needed to be doing far more important things with the time I had, such as preflighting the book. In the end because they were minor, they didn’t take much time, and I really hope this set me up for a good habit of making sure everything is how I want them to the best of my ability, because had I not done it, the little problems would have bothered me for the rest of the story since it would be even less likely that I’d go back and change these things in the future.

In the end, I am both very happy and very frustrated with this book. the making of this book was another huge step forward for me, even if it was almost unintended. Quality aside–since I can’t trust myself with this at all anymore, having stared at these pages every waking hour of the day for the past 3 months–being able to crank out this book this fast when necessary opens many options for me with the extra free time. I was always concerned that if I had to keep up the way I live right now, having to spend an entire day to finish only one page, I would certainly get exhausted or fall sick easily when I’m older and not be able to keep up anymore, but I’m relieved that this is not the case. I am pleased with how the art came out as well, there weren’t many places where I wish I could’ve had the time to redraw, and a lot of those places where I felt that way, I actually did spend the time to redraw them. But I know how these things are, when you look at it for so long without being able to look away, so I wouldn’t be surprised if someone told me that I lost something in the art in exchange for finishing everything in time.

The frustration came mostly from the story… because whether or not the story is actually good and/or interesting to other people (if I cared about making a work that can live up to some external standard, I would’ve enlisted the help of an editor instead of going at it blindly on my own),  the most important thing about CP is it is a very endearing story/world to me. I only want to get better at the art to do the story justice in my mind and tell it like I want to, and to give it enough charm to get others to read it. The page count limit really force me to do what I don’t want to do, and what’s more I had very little time to change the story in a way I’m happy with. I don’t know how well I would’ve kept up this feverish production pace if there weren’t an actual emergency, but half of me wished I could have tried this production speed at another time when I had room for failure, then at least I could pause everything and spend as much time as I need to set things straight, like revising the plot. This is an especially infuriating thought because the whole point of self publishing is so that I can do all of that whenever I feel like, but I let my moment ambition strap myself down. I guess I can’t always have everything the way I want them, as much as I try to be in control.

In the end, book 3 is over and I gained lots of experience that would help me prepare for book 4.

In the past week of grind I’ve accumulated these goods!

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toning (:

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I tried to go ahead to see if anything changes during rough colouring of this version, and although I do like how it came out, many of my friends whose opinion I trust agreed that the first version is more effective as a cover piece in relation to my other covers, and covers of other people’s publications. I might use this for something else if I end up wanting to finish it, otherwise, good game version 2

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The version 1 that I ended up finishing. Made the background darker. The finished cover is posted on the manga site and will be posted on other sites as well when the book is released ^^

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everythang glowing c:

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First scrap after finishing print stuff! I didn’t want to resort to a starry night but I was like whatever I can’t be assed to care too much for the first relaxation piece I’ve drawn in too long. I’m happy I could make the stars look nice this time around. SHITS HARD even though they’re just dots… I wanted to write a short cute dialogue of feeling immersed in the world, or the act of immersing oneself in the world. After so many years of looking out from your eyes, the body can give such a strong feeling of separation, but maybe in a reflection, you can see more clearly how close you are to everything around you.

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Why wont you fight back?
And this picture… I saw typhoon rain on Mayday, and I remember I always loved the look of heavy rain waving in gusting winds like enormous curtains. I just had a little fun with the rain and left the rest to UST yayyy ^u^

Lastly Prokofiev’s 2nd piano concerto (: I was feeling really shitty that week, thank god I came across this piece because for some reason that cadenza made everything better. It felt good and satisfying to listen to, I can feel like I was playing it! It sucks that it will/has lost its effect though so I’m trying to not to overlisten this time HAHA

I think I’ll go ahead and finish an illustration before moving onto tidying preorder things and working on things I agreed to work on for other people.

mewsik

Found this song thru Naguri

Starlight keeper ~ vocaloid Oliver! I didn’t know there was an English vocaloid, but it doesn’t matter I just pretend he’s talking gibberish anyway, songs are always better this way LOL

get stuff done

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Not sure if I posted this before, but a preview of some card game commission I did a while ago -u- I wish I could post the pieces because I was surprisingly satisfied with them considering I hate doing commissions. I rarely have any success doing generic looking pieces but I think I really like the results this time. I’m not sure if it’s because it’s a japanese company and therefore they were more rational or something, but they pretty much asked me to draw what I do best aka maleloce and I was just wondering why can’t all commissions be nice like this? you’d think it’s logical that you find an artist and ask them for their specialty based on what you see in their gallery so you get QUALITY PRODUCT, without having to pay for excessive amount of pain and suffering on the artist’s part. Learning and trying out new things should be done by the artist on their free time, right? Not when you’re paying for it and depend on the end result to be amazing, BUT I DIGRESS……

So back in 4th year in piano literature class, we had 4 playlists of the 4 main periods of music, and I’ve been listening to the first list from early baroque to the middle of the classical period I don’t even remember what the cut off was at. I discovered that rhythmic Baroque music is really good for getting stuff done? It has a little drive to it, while the voices and motifs keeps me thinking without baffling my mind like their super expansive late romantic counterparts. I’d really like to relearn some fugues especially these days cus they’re so satisfying to play, but they’re a pain in the ass to learn compared to just technical splendor HAHA. The list of things I’d like to do after I’m done with volume 3 just keeps getting longer and longer Q___Q

Anyway here is part of a toccata by bach that I’ve been listening to for a while to work! the paintings are fucking bizarre I must say

I just finished toning the 50 pages I inked, so only 50 pages more to go! Then a cover and possibly a bonus story, depending on how my page count is looking because I’d cry if volume 3 turns out to be like 1mm too thick for the lettermail height limit LOL;;;;;;;;;;