Tumblr is making me forget what I have posted where ahahahaha… I used to prioritize this blog but I guess tumblr is just too convenient I started posting there first before I even realized it.

I finished 2 pages pretty quickly yesterday and today so I decided to waste some time on a drawing. drawing comics too much puts me at a loss as to what to do for colours because I just think in lines. I drew her leaning over some handrails at first, wanted to continue it but didn’t know what I wanted to do… It went from a random sunset to a scene of war to a park after hours of just… sitting here and staring at the picture thinking while doing nothing. the red/orange/magenta was also so awkward and weird to work with because I don’t think I ever draw anything bathed in red light so I spent a lot of time looking for colours too. I remember that one colour test I took of distinguishing colours and I missed like 4 in the magenta area LMAO. Colouring red stuff tires my eyes out really fast too augh BUT I LOVE RED

AN application was last last friday and MAN I THOUGHT I HAD IT THIS YEAR BUT LOL I DIDN’T… then again I thought the same last year too ): I was shaking from de adrenaline rush for like 5 minutes after sending in the application e-mail and everything but none of that mattered enough to let me into the first 50 ): then my internet decided to die from Saturday morning to Monday afternoon straight when the lottery tables were supposed to be announced on Sunday. I ended up going to mcd to check my e-mail because I was doing preorders too still, and I had a few important e-mails awaiting replies that I really don’t want to take too long with. by some DIVINE LUCK I managed to get a lottery table ;w; I am so fucking relieved while at the same time praying that my payment doesn’t get lost in the mail LOL…

I just want to draw simple pictures of busts or waist ups these days q__q and I think they would be pretty effective amidst my ocean of elaborate drawings too if I print them for sale. It’s a good thing but god I always feel so guilty for some reason if I don’t go over the top with my paintings ): I’ve been trying really hard to save up drawings and try to get the next art book rolling, but so far all of the exclusive drawings are so simple compared to the stuff I post Q_Q I must be going through some phase that normal ppl go through when they’re in their teens

In other news, I’ve got some cool merchandise in the making!

www.artofwhere.com/designlab was kind enough to offer me a sample product of something new they’re trying. At first I turned them down because although I’d love to expand on my merchandise variety (which at the present sits at none), my paintings somehow really don’t look like they’d suit pillows much. I thought the heaven’s piece came closest in terms of something that looks nice on a pillow, and I was surprised at how good the quality was when it got here! The cover material is a little thick but it’s so that the printing can be high quality. I’m pretty amazed at how much detail that got preserved onto the actual cloth printing because per my understanding, that’s hard to achieve. I’m not sure if I could make these available through any reasonable means at the moment though but we’ll see!

And the second piece is actually a few months old:

I went forward to getting these during new year’s but the company went through some difficulties so these samples only arrived recently. I was going to make these as part of the release of book 2, since the book revolved around veloce’s necklace, and this is a much more practical and elegant design version of veloce’s necklace (because there is no realistic way for me to make that necklace due to all the crazy claws and glass and metal and gem combination that could only be conceived by a noob like me. ) But they won’t get made and get here in time so I’ll have to leave it for another time ): I’m really happy with the two I got though! It’s slim but sturdy, and it works well as both a phone charm and a necklace. I’m trying to find nice, classy silver chains and jewelry boxes for when they do get made (:

Ending with a detail shot of a picture I completed last week :D I’m learning how to stop over shading things that don’t need shading! and I love the result compared to the overkill I usually perform.

First, self pimp!

Onto life, applying to universities sucks so hard and is costing a fortune ): I really hope my cousin gets into at least one of them so that she wouldn’t have to go through this process again and spend even more money on everything… But in between the process something even worse came up within our family circle. I’m not a direct victim but it really made everyone stressed out, worried, feel guilty and just at a loss of what to do because there is nothing we can do about it except to pray for the best. The entire family atmosphere is tiring because everyone has to try to remain optimistic about it, but at the same time we feel bad for not worrying our asses off even though doing so changes nothing. I really wish people don’t put so much emphasis on how we’re supposed to react towards death and disease. Sure if somebody happen to be on their last days it would be nice of their friends to give them the best last days ever, but we can’t just constantly live in fear and guilt ourselves. we can die any minute since we were born, what the hell kind of life would we lead if we spend a lot of it working towards buying ourselves and others more time to live? isn’t that kind of stupid?

In a less depressing note, I did some scraps! I think our wireless got stolen last month because we went way over limit so I couldn’t stream some drawings when I wanted to ): I did manage to get all my carciphona 2 release stuff ready and can finally sell it after 3 months. I originally was trying to get a special pendant made for the occasion but the company I was working with suddenly became very sluggish because they said their systems broke down and had to spend a lot of time recovering. To this day I’m still waiting for the sample piece to arrive so I decided to just leave it for next time. To be honest I’m a little burned out working on the next book, doing stuff for family and just plain waiting for so long that I’m not as excited as I was with the book releases last year, and people can probably tell from the release notices since I’m pretty bad at pretending to give a crap when I don’t have any :1

one day I’ll get to them in the story, maybe… I was looking at this colour scheme generator that somebody linked and suddenly realized that the eyes of these three are pretty much a triad even though I didn’t think about it when I made them like…. 6 years ago? I ended up drawing them afterwards just for the traffic light eyes :v

and idk attempt to draw generic anime #35098405

wow I kinda just… died after new year’s LOL. I keep waiting for myself to sketch up something so I can post it here along with anything else I wanted to write, but I just didn’t draw anything at all. I’ve been busy rushing to finish off volume 3 thumbnails because it has taken far too long, then I started drawing them out right away because based on the pace I settled on, it’s going to take forever to finish if I don’t pick up my pace and make up for the 2 months of break between finishing the last book and starting this one. I’ve also taken my relatives everywhere to get their government IDs and school stuff taken care of since their immigration, and by the end of the day whenever I sit down, I just don’t want to draw. It’s kinda that time where I haven’t finished something serious for so long that I’ve accumulated so much I want to accomplish on the next drawing and end up not being able to do anything instead. I think some inspirational outdoors trip is long due ): So I’ve just been doing random 20-min photo studies instead HAHA (something I’ve been meaning to do for years………………..) hopefully I’ll stop caring sometime soon!

In other news, I watched the second season of avatar! I don’t remember what happened in the first season anymore but I don’t think I liked it very much back then, else I would have had a stronger impression. I did like the second season a lot though, mostly if not almost entirely because of the characters. The story is well thought out and nicely played but there are still a lot of stuff I don’t like about it, so I guess it pales in comparison to how the characters strike me. Whether or not I like the type of character I feel they were really believable. on top of that I thoroughly enjoyed the fact that toph is such a girly character and just not what I had anticipated. And even at the end, after going through so much struggles back and forth, when presented the opportunity, zuko still returned to his original ambitions because even though ideally, a character morphs for the better but realistically, no one can really so easily drop what they’ve pursued for so long just because of a couple of inspiring events, especially someone so young. I wish I could be more brave and persistent in writing character flaws but my desire for balance is way too strong ): I just feel the need to sort everything out and maintain order at any given point in the story. No matter what happens in my story, I don’t think I ever let anything feel like they’ve gone out of control.

now presenting mudkip on his bahamutmobile. My room faces south now so if only I slept at normal times, I would see beautiful sunrises everyday. but who cares anyway it’s just sunrise and not nearly as important as going to sleep at 4am

And Happy Chinese New Year if you’re celebrating! I’ll be having the most festive new year gathering yet tomorrow in just about 10 years, with my uncle and aunt (separate)’s families present! To think we used to have like 10+ families gatherings just because our families are huge LOL BUT I THINK THIS IS BIG ENOUGH. I think I’ll go insane if I went back to the old days…………..

ok this post has nothing to do with the new year but happy new year! I’m going to jump straight to business like any other day lalalala

so!! my dad is back home from China and my aunt’s family have moved in! they’re great so far but I’ll leave that for later because I still haven’t gotten too acquainted with them… BUT YEAH my dad also brought back 2 copies of carciphona volume 1 and 2! The rest are on the way to be shipped here. It printed really well! we had paper, size and weight ink concerns at first, also this company has apparently never printed comic books before because they specialize in art books, magazines and such, so they were really confused about a lot of stuff LOL;;; but I’m glad that after all the shit we gave them that the final books (or well just this one) is awesome. now to pray for not so many factory defects this time!!

I remember I really aimed for the thin lines and neat look for volume 2, at least compared to volume 1 because I actually went out of my way to thicken lines for line thickness variation in volume 1. It really stood out in volume 2 with the bigger canvas and the fact that I crammed a lot of material in the latter half of the book due to page count issues, and now that I’m comparing them side to side, I kinda miss the bold lines sometimes haha ;; It’s so clean and neat and organized now. I’ll have to remember to make use of both in fitting circumstances, because the thin lines and detailed look helped a lot in drawing elaborate the elaborate backgrounds the story keeps finding itself in.

yaa pictures of our yard!!! EXCITING