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oh my god I’ve spent the past 2 months writing book 5 and subsequently 6 since it’s the same overarching event, and since I knew I needed to get the next book started as soon as possible since I will run out of pages by the beginning of march, I’ve sat myself to work almost exclusively on writing. IT TOOK SO MUCH DISCIPLINE because the entire time I was filled with motivation to draw HAHA I THINK I CAN SHIT OUT AN ENTIRE ARTBOOK RIGHT NOW IF I DIDN’T HAVE TO DRAW THE COMIC… artists know how it is with wanting to draw when you don’t have time to/aren’t supposed to LOL. I am happy I decided to commit to continue writing book 6 even though I am pressed for time, every edit/addition I’ve made to book 5 because of what I wrote in book 6 made it feel so worth it!! I hate having to feel like “wow I wish I had done ____ in this part” after the fact especially when in comics, there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it except to wallow in regret ”’orz but now I am later than ever with starting book 5 because I don’t even have a single page of thumbnails done yet, at this rate I will have to take a little hiatus or post up the bonus story from book 4 (at least temporarily anyway) to buffer the transition ]: keeping a comic going is hard as shit ugh

anyway I drew a bunch of stuff since my last post!

I sat down to draw a chinese new year sketch but apparently my brain was confused about which holiday it is?? because I drew this instead… I let myself tho cus I had a lot of drawing frustration pent up by that time so I just drew whatever I wanted; my drawing ability got worse too from the huge gap of not sketching anything new ]:
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And a second league sketch that I started since I finished Riven, this time kristen’s favourite adc annihilating her other favourite champ lmao
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I was going to draw a vday picture yesterday but when I opened up my music, this song was there and derailed me into this gloomy picture instead LOL… I don’t know why but this piece resonates with my mind a lot but I always get strong visuals whenever I listen to it, most of the similar scenes. I could probably make a book out of similarly themed drawings, BUT TOO BAD the theme is too depressing and boring and not EXCITING or ROMANTIC or ORIGINAL and so it won’t sell well ]: AUGH MY TASTES ARE ALWAYS IN THE NOT PROFITABLE.
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I’ve always had trouble applying colours to a b/w painting but I’ve found it increasingly important for me to learn how to do it because it seems to be the standard process for a lot of people, I’ve tried it here and there with no success and this time is not much different; This time it’s most likely because this picture has like NO colour in it though lmfao so the whole time I was at a loss as to what colours to use LOL… BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME

And here is the actual vday picture after I recovered from my tangent hahaha, AU blackbird is getting more and more ridiculous and cheeky as I draw her LMAO…
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IT FELT GOOD TO DRAW AGAIN AND HERE’S TO MORE DRAWS FOREVER

cp4 cover and scraps `▽`

I got to draw a lot of stuff this week IM SO HAPPY ;V;

I finished both the outside and inside cover!! I am relatively happy about how the cover turned out, it’s so pretty this time as opposed to the usual ~*dRaMa*~ and contrast of previous tryhard covers HAHA…. I wasn’t too enthusiastic about having to draw the inside cover though, because I wanted it done as fast as possible so I can get the book printed as soon as possible, so I filled an entire canvas with meron’s hair because I can’t go wrong with hair… or fabric. I’m not happy with it but at least it’s done, so I’m just not gonna think about it LOL;;; I wonder if I should just use an existing illustration I did that year as the inside cover from now on, because why not right

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I also started playing league with my girlfriend kristen since she plays it regularly. needless to say I AM CURRENTLY VERY BAD at anything from getting last hit to being useful in fights. I drew these for her to commemorate our (accurate) experiences
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and for some reason I had a huge urge to draw riven as a thug LOL. I felt really guilty about it because colour themed designs are abused everywhere and the design is so generic too, but it was so enjoyable to draw ): I want to make thug versions of other champs too cus colour coordinated designs like this is just asking for it but so far I don’t feel any other champ’s vibe strongly enough to be able to naturally shit out another one like this one. I was gonna do sona but SHE’D JUST LOOK EXACTLY LIKE MIKU HAHAHA

lastly a NSFW pic that I think I’m gonna try and finish!! I hope I don’t get bored of it when I’m done with printing books ;_;

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progress

I’m down to 15 more pages to ink!! except I need to rewrite the next scene completely lol…… I CAN’T WAIT TO FINALLY BE DONE WITH THIS. Having a proper pace is so damaging sometimes cus I’m sure I can come up with a much better story flow if I didn’t have to write a part of the story that I have absolutely no inspiration for. I am all for hard work and overcoming obstacles, but this is the one place where I know I will regret it in the future, because this story is so precious to me and I want for every part of it to be natural and effortless, not calculated and contrived ]:

no spoilers means boring snapshots ;;

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Going to cons is pretty bad for my work momentum, which I’ve pretty much completely lost since returning from NYCC and recovering from September. I don’t know if it’s because the pages are tricky to draw (lots of crowd scenes and unfamiliar perspectives) or I just lost my grip of my pencil but so far I’ve been painfully crawling at about a page a day, versus like 3 a day in August LOL… I should reschedule my releases so that page grinding starts after October or when all my cons are over, instead of starting when all my cons happen right now. The only positive thing that’s coming out of this is I get to stop from time to time to look back, and see if I still like where the story is going, before moving on to do permanent damage I guess…

The last few months have been stressful, sometimes physically and sometimes mentally. On top of some family emergencies, there was a convergence of a ton of other events. I’m not used to having to take great care with people, but my situation this year has forced me to, and enough time has passed since my initial crisis for some things to build up and burst while other things require action and change. I handled some of those things poorly and though in the end they could be considered solved for the time being, I can feel what remains of the stress in my need for distraction and lack of focus to create.

It’s fortunate that I don’t need to be writing important parts of my story right now and I could just spend all day churning out planned pages while listening to documentaries and think of nothing. But ever since I’ve finished scripting book 4 in the beginning of this year, I haven’t done any story writing or world building. In the past, I think about–aka daydream–CP whenever I feel like throughout the day, an act of introversion that I enjoy that fulfills my mental needs. The world slowly builds itself and I would have bursts of progress in the form of writing these things down over the year, every few weeks or every few months. I liked that CP grew like that, but I haven’t done anything like that this year because my mind is often with my significant other now. This is probably the best proof that I was pretty much married to my art and my work. It’s not a loss or a bad thing really, it’s just a shift in my life that is a little alarming at first–right now–because I don’t know what this will do to my story yet. Maybe it would become a better story because I have to methodically and efficiently write the story from now on, who knows!

lastly an exit sketch of me carrying the corpses of my blog followers into the horizon
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scraps and NYCC

BUT FIRST here are some scraps I drew between the last time I posted and now, I haven’t drawn them much this year at all ):

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This was drawn listening to this snk ost of eren’s mom’s death LOL. WHENEVER THAT SONG PLAYED SOMETHING BEYOND HORRIBLE HAPPENS IN THE ANIME and therefore naturally it catered to my preferences very much ahuheaueuhaeuh

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This was drawn like the day before I left for NYCC. I’m not sure where it came from, but after I drew everything, I decided to look for classical paintings of kings to get some ideas about what to throw in the background, and inadvertently realized that I had drawn the Pieta into something totally inappropriate OOPS

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And a WIP of a gift for kristen :D

SO ANYWAY NYCC

This is undoubtedly my favourite con of the year now because of its location. NYC has a special place in my heart, it’s close by, and it’s a con that is actually not stressful (at least during the con) because it’s well run, it operates on reasonable hours, and so many helpful friends are there as well. I was surprised I wasn’t that tired even though it’s a 4 day con with dinner socializing obligations everyday (unlike AN LOL WHERE I TURN INTO AN ANTISOCIAL HERMIT AFTER CON EVERYDAY) Maybe it was cus my adrenaline was always up whenever I get to do stuff around the city; I was just excited to be back. My friends brought me to amazing food places everyday, took care of me by bringing me lunch and helping me with my ridiculous amount of luggage, and also HOOKED ME UP WITH FREE HOTEL ROOMS THAT THEY HAVE OBTAINED WITH THEIR WITCHCRAFT making my stay dirt cheap WTF. This is a con I will definitely try to go back to every year as long as they accept me in the alley, and hopefully in the future I will be able to bring kristen with me as well ;-;

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The only shot I took at the AA because my table looks eternally the same every con anyway

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The fancy new javits front door that was under construction the last time I went!

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Everyone else bought pokemon over the weekend as part of their loot, but I don’t play ): I did find adam hughes there by accident and bought one of my favourite pieces of his! I will buy a frame for it later, but honestly I am worried about actually hanging it up because for some reason my parents like to show my condo to their friends, and they probably wouldn’t want me to hang this up anyway LOL… I guess I will take it down whenever I have visitors or something idk

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A commission Jay was doing and I wanted to take a pic of it cus it was SO BEAUTIFUL……………. but he trolled last minute and turned this pic into like an anime action frame or something

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This is the view of a hotel in brooklyn we stayed at during one of the nights HAHA. the hotel itself was fine but wow this view

And now please brace for the foods
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In which Finni paid like $80 in 1s HAHAHAH

And some pics from my plane!! I wish I had a better camera to capture these pictures because I just loooove flying ;; so far in my 3 flights to NYC though I’ve always be seated on the wrong side for arrival and never got a chance to look at Manhattan during the fly around. THE WINDS DON’T LIKE ME ]:

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Ending with more pics out of my window
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fight

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from listening to the everybody dies theme

I don’t look for music to draw to, but when I do come across a song that gets to me I will have this unstoppable NEED to puke my heart onto a canvas and it feels sooooo good to do :I It’s interesting how there is really only one part of the song that hit me and the rest is kind of not very good, but man is that melody well done and hard hitting it almost feels like a waste to be preceded and followed by the rest of the piece. It’s pretty much true for most songs and drawings and stories; it doesn’t have to be made of gold and diamond all the way through, but you better make sure there is one thing that claws right into your viewers’ kokoro and make them remember