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books!!

MY BOOKS ARE HERE!!! after many delays in drawing and printing and all the holidays and stuff, they’re finally printed and being shipped here, though they wont’ be here for another month LMAO… now that I know when they’ll get here I’ve decided to run my preorders from March 1-30, that will give me plenty of time to pack and ship. I UPSed myself one box in advance for Toronto Comicon and they just arrived yesterday, they look really good!! The insides are a little dark but otherwise the printing company did a good job on it this time, and the light cover is kinda a breath of fresh air from the previous 3 dark covers :D I need a better camera for product photos tho ]: NEED TO ENLIST NOA’S HELP

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In book 5 related news, I did the same thing I did in book 4 where I realized I needed to design new characters after I started thumbnailing lol… I was having a hard time with this one because I’ve been drawing fairies naked, and it feels strange to draw them with clothes now. I’ve been drawing them in a nature theme too with floral hair and claws and stuff, but they don’t really have a connection to nature so I had to take them all away, and that makes it harder to find things to ornament their bodies. The standard procedure for naked characters is also to just censor via stuff like hair and cloth bits or leaves and flowers and stuff, but it feels REALLY arbitrary to do that… in my mind doing that just highlights those specific explicit areas even more, and flaunt the fact that they’re almost naked and the fact that I know it’s not ok but decided to do it anyway. eventually I think these gold ornaments work well on them… they add detail to her body that suits the immortals without hindering the body shape that I want to preserve and without hinting censorship. I’ll sit on this design for a while to see if I really need to draw her without clothes or if I can come up with some alternate solution…………………..

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oh my god I’ve spent the past 2 months writing book 5 and subsequently 6 since it’s the same overarching event, and since I knew I needed to get the next book started as soon as possible since I will run out of pages by the beginning of march, I’ve sat myself to work almost exclusively on writing. IT TOOK SO MUCH DISCIPLINE because the entire time I was filled with motivation to draw HAHA I THINK I CAN SHIT OUT AN ENTIRE ARTBOOK RIGHT NOW IF I DIDN’T HAVE TO DRAW THE COMIC… artists know how it is with wanting to draw when you don’t have time to/aren’t supposed to LOL. I am happy I decided to commit to continue writing book 6 even though I am pressed for time, every edit/addition I’ve made to book 5 because of what I wrote in book 6 made it feel so worth it!! I hate having to feel like “wow I wish I had done ____ in this part” after the fact especially when in comics, there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it except to wallow in regret ”’orz but now I am later than ever with starting book 5 because I don’t even have a single page of thumbnails done yet, at this rate I will have to take a little hiatus or post up the bonus story from book 4 (at least temporarily anyway) to buffer the transition ]: keeping a comic going is hard as shit ugh

anyway I drew a bunch of stuff since my last post!

I sat down to draw a chinese new year sketch but apparently my brain was confused about which holiday it is?? because I drew this instead… I let myself tho cus I had a lot of drawing frustration pent up by that time so I just drew whatever I wanted; my drawing ability got worse too from the huge gap of not sketching anything new ]:
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And a second league sketch that I started since I finished Riven, this time kristen’s favourite adc annihilating her other favourite champ lmao
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I was going to draw a vday picture yesterday but when I opened up my music, this song was there and derailed me into this gloomy picture instead LOL… I don’t know why but this piece resonates with my mind a lot but I always get strong visuals whenever I listen to it, most of the similar scenes. I could probably make a book out of similarly themed drawings, BUT TOO BAD the theme is too depressing and boring and not EXCITING or ROMANTIC or ORIGINAL and so it won’t sell well ]: AUGH MY TASTES ARE ALWAYS IN THE NOT PROFITABLE.
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I’ve always had trouble applying colours to a b/w painting but I’ve found it increasingly important for me to learn how to do it because it seems to be the standard process for a lot of people, I’ve tried it here and there with no success and this time is not much different; This time it’s most likely because this picture has like NO colour in it though lmfao so the whole time I was at a loss as to what colours to use LOL… BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME

And here is the actual vday picture after I recovered from my tangent hahaha, AU blackbird is getting more and more ridiculous and cheeky as I draw her LMAO…
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IT FELT GOOD TO DRAW AGAIN AND HERE’S TO MORE DRAWS FOREVER

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I got to draw a lot of stuff this week IM SO HAPPY ;V;

I finished both the outside and inside cover!! I am relatively happy about how the cover turned out, it’s so pretty this time as opposed to the usual ~*dRaMa*~ and contrast of previous tryhard covers HAHA…. I wasn’t too enthusiastic about having to draw the inside cover though, because I wanted it done as fast as possible so I can get the book printed as soon as possible, so I filled an entire canvas with meron’s hair because I can’t go wrong with hair… or fabric. I’m not happy with it but at least it’s done, so I’m just not gonna think about it LOL;;; I wonder if I should just use an existing illustration I did that year as the inside cover from now on, because why not right

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I also started playing league with my girlfriend kristen since she plays it regularly. needless to say I AM CURRENTLY VERY BAD at anything from getting last hit to being useful in fights. I drew these for her to commemorate our (accurate) experiences
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and for some reason I had a huge urge to draw riven as a thug LOL. I felt really guilty about it because colour themed designs are abused everywhere and the design is so generic too, but it was so enjoyable to draw ): I want to make thug versions of other champs too cus colour coordinated designs like this is just asking for it but so far I don’t feel any other champ’s vibe strongly enough to be able to naturally shit out another one like this one. I was gonna do sona but SHE’D JUST LOOK EXACTLY LIKE MIKU HAHAHA

lastly a NSFW pic that I think I’m gonna try and finish!! I hope I don’t get bored of it when I’m done with printing books ;_;

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BOOK 4 PAGES DOOONE

ALL OF BOOK 4′S PAGES ARE DONE ;_____________; MAKES CONFETTI WITH PAGES

HERE ARE SOME SNAPSHOTS OF NOT REALLY WIP PAGES SINCE THEY’RE ALREADY DONE

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AND HERE IS A PAGE FROM THE BONUS STORY OF BOOK 4!! This bonus story turned out to be really long for some reason (16 pages instead of just 10) while the main story only goes up to 138 pages this volume ):
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I have SOOO MANY PICTURES that I want to work on.. but I still have to do a cover, an inside cover, and preflight book 4, then do the tutorial that I promised to make back in like may (ha ha ha;;;) and finish a gift I started for my gf before I can do anything else CRYYYYY… I don’t even know what to do for this year’s christmas sale either, christmas is such a big opportunity to let by, but what can I do I only have so much time ;_; BUT HOPEFULLY THIS UPCOMING WEEK WOULD FEATURE LOTS AND LOTS OF DRAWING

in non work news Noa and Jay brought me to Go For Tea for the first time to play games and get fat
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And for Black Friday sales I got myself a new video card, ssd and a power supply because my case is so old and I had no idea that I actually have to care about wattage for a power supply LOL…………………..
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I’ve been being cheap about my video card during my past computer upgrades, because I wasn’t going to just toss away a perfectly functioning card that costed A HUNDRED DORRAS. But I’ve finally reached the point where I see the model of my card as the minimum requirement for some games ”’orz I’ve also been lagging while multitasking photoshop/games/streams and other things, so I guess my card was finally dragging down the rest of the money I put into my comp ): I was just gonna spend another $100 to just buy a decent one, but after asking friends about how to even decipher between them, I decided to go for a more expensive card to see what it’s like.

I always buy parts for my computer but I never put them together myself LOL, because I’d always be scared about destroying stuff I paid hundreds of dollars for in the name of learning. But the day I bought the new parts, my family all went to some outlet mall to shop, and I was really eager to see how these expensive parts are like, I decided to try to do it myself. PERFECT LOGIC RIGHT, SCARED TO DO IT WITH $120 PARTS BUT DECIDES TO GO FOR IT WITH $600 PARTS… I took so long and at one point my comp was in pieces, and I realized I had no screwdriver LOL. so I had to go on an impromptu shopping trip to walmart while my comp laid with its guts spilled all over the ground. I was soooooo scared that I would fry something or it wouldn’t turn back on, but I managed to MAKE IT WORK!! I WAS SO PUMPED TO REINSTALL MY STUFF ON THE SSD AND EXPERIENCE ITS POWER but I couldn’t find my windows 7 install disk anywhere, and thus anticlimatically ends my computer upgrade adventure :I

And here are some more pics of the sky like always, I am beginning to feel a bit sad about how my camera turns everything into magma in dim lighting ]:

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progress

I’m down to 15 more pages to ink!! except I need to rewrite the next scene completely lol…… I CAN’T WAIT TO FINALLY BE DONE WITH THIS. Having a proper pace is so damaging sometimes cus I’m sure I can come up with a much better story flow if I didn’t have to write a part of the story that I have absolutely no inspiration for. I am all for hard work and overcoming obstacles, but this is the one place where I know I will regret it in the future, because this story is so precious to me and I want for every part of it to be natural and effortless, not calculated and contrived ]:

no spoilers means boring snapshots ;;

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Going to cons is pretty bad for my work momentum, which I’ve pretty much completely lost since returning from NYCC and recovering from September. I don’t know if it’s because the pages are tricky to draw (lots of crowd scenes and unfamiliar perspectives) or I just lost my grip of my pencil but so far I’ve been painfully crawling at about a page a day, versus like 3 a day in August LOL… I should reschedule my releases so that page grinding starts after October or when all my cons are over, instead of starting when all my cons happen right now. The only positive thing that’s coming out of this is I get to stop from time to time to look back, and see if I still like where the story is going, before moving on to do permanent damage I guess…

The last few months have been stressful, sometimes physically and sometimes mentally. On top of some family emergencies, there was a convergence of a ton of other events. I’m not used to having to take great care with people, but my situation this year has forced me to, and enough time has passed since my initial crisis for some things to build up and burst while other things require action and change. I handled some of those things poorly and though in the end they could be considered solved for the time being, I can feel what remains of the stress in my need for distraction and lack of focus to create.

It’s fortunate that I don’t need to be writing important parts of my story right now and I could just spend all day churning out planned pages while listening to documentaries and think of nothing. But ever since I’ve finished scripting book 4 in the beginning of this year, I haven’t done any story writing or world building. In the past, I think about–aka daydream–CP whenever I feel like throughout the day, an act of introversion that I enjoy that fulfills my mental needs. The world slowly builds itself and I would have bursts of progress in the form of writing these things down over the year, every few weeks or every few months. I liked that CP grew like that, but I haven’t done anything like that this year because my mind is often with my significant other now. This is probably the best proof that I was pretty much married to my art and my work. It’s not a loss or a bad thing really, it’s just a shift in my life that is a little alarming at first–right now–because I don’t know what this will do to my story yet. Maybe it would become a better story because I have to methodically and efficiently write the story from now on, who knows!

lastly an exit sketch of me carrying the corpses of my blog followers into the horizon
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