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How to not get work done

I suddenly have so much to draw ): There are three projects that I had agreed to a while ago that sprung up now, and I also suddenly have this great ambition to put effort into making prints that might sell well at Otakon. I do intend to keep the prints as “anime” as possible though, so hopefully I can produce more over a shorter period of time! But in the mean time I thought there is no better time to draw up totally unrelated pieces instead of getting work done!

I drew her as a ball jointed doll here, and if I ever finish this picture (which I most likely won’t) the ballerina will be painted as a real person. The story is from the second movement of Ravel’s Sonatine. It’s the song of a music box slowly winding down, when it stop and you look into the ballerina’s eyes, and you realize that the soul of a person is trapped inside. I would give her the blank/insane look again which I think actually fits the storybetter, but whatever I’m not finishing this HAHA. I still need a name for her ): outside of RO context I don’t really like the name Aesprika lol, and I am totally not going to call her Shilin lmao

And omg ok huge fucking wall of text: WHY IS CANADA POST SO EXPENSIVE. Shipping to my own country is more expensive than usps shipping from USA to here. Erina’s doujin only cost $2 before taxes but my book will cost almost $4. And $7 to the USA. And almost $9 internationally… this costs almost as much as the book. And this is large letter rates. If someone orders multiples it will turn into a small parcel WHICH WILL COST EVEN MORE LOL after all I’ve done to keep the price of the book low and enticing, shipping ruins it for me.

I’m doing all the shipping preparations and ordering shipping supplies as I wait for an estimate of time the books will arrive, so I can pick a date to start taking preorders. I’m thinking about May 1, which lands nicely on an update day: sunday (also 6th launch anniversary! although I don’t know if anyone actually knows that because I never celebrate it). I’m expecting the books to get here by the end of May/beginning of June, but if the company manager that I’ve been working with tells me it will be later then I’ll have to push back the date some more ):

I’m also really scared about the books being printed incorrectly right now because this company outsources the printing (that’s why it’s so cheap and good at the same time) so the proof is not made by the same people who will be printing the book. Since the book is backwards, I had to save everything backwards. The proof printed flawlessly, but as I gave him the altered pages (dialogs) I noticed the blank page count at the beginning of the file (end of the book) is 2. The book ends on a two-page spread, with 1 physical page of blank paper at the end, so technically there should be 3 blank pages on the file. I asked him and he said he didn’t change anything on my file and printed it as is. I didn’t change it in the end because I could be fixing something that’s not broken, but I’m just praying so hard right now that everything will be ok and that I’m just overworrying LOL… MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF BOOKS PRINTED WRONG IS NOT FUNNY. I’m not sure I’ve worried about anything this much for a while, not even my surgery because it was free LMAO

faces of derp

I’m having SUCH A BAD WEEK omg but I’ll leave it for the next post or when my boiling rage dies down a little, so I can summarize all the events concisely without exploding into a spray of words. for now pls enjoy sum  4am weird arts

what are you doing get out of that F16

wow this picture looks even more dull and dirt coloured next to that layerraped scrap up there LOL. her face piss me off so much I HATE DRAWING FACES AUGH… I need to go for much more anime mouth and nose if I want to keep faces anime. or start drawing doll faces yaaaaa

ya idk

shilin the not priest

So I don’t really feel like drawing my other Blackbird characters like ever–I’m sure I will in the future when they get more feature, so I won’t force it and I’ll just wait for it–and I’ve been seeing more RO stuff from artist friends I love so I’ve been wanting to draw RO stuff myself. Being the productivitywhore that I am though, I really hate the fact that I can’t do anything with the high priest character because it’s technically not original, so any thing I do with them is a waste of time. I do like my RO characters enough to want to develop them more, too, so I decided to alter them into non-RO characters. I ended up stemming the design from the awefulbishop atrocity because I’m so content with my original high priest mod I don’t want to touch it ):
The colours were so hard and I’m still not happy about it. I’m bad with colour palettes to begin with and I couldn’t use a lot of nice contrasting colours because it wouldn’t suit her character. I wanted to preserve the red, but it’s really difficult to work around and it’s probably the colour that’s ruining everything lol

Here is the original disastrous palettes that I went through… none of them worked because I just juggled around colours that don’t work together HAHA
As for the “monarch” title, it came from the orc hero helm alteration because my hp is not my hp without that brick on her head. It looked like imp midna’s headgear at first but eventually I went with this butterfly shape. I’ll probably incorporate that into the rest of my RO characters’ original designs (if I ever get to it LOL) as a symbol for their group, the “Monarchs” LOLDONTHITME They’ll probably a bunch of influential figures in some random world, serving under a queen-like figure who gave them super awesome powers in exchange for their memories in the same fashion as the 4-page RO test pages I did ages ago.

In other news I finished both my manga commission and Blackbird compilation this week, and they took up the majority of my daily life for the past… year. So all of a sudden I am free to work on the drawings I’ve wanted to paint, character designs I’ve wanted to do, script writing that Blackbird needed. I DON’T KNOW IT’S JUST SO WEIRD THAT I PRETTY MUCH LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DO… The next 2 weeks will be even better; my super secret charms will be arriving and if my estimates are correct, I will have Blackbird book 1 (the proof) in my hands by the end of it. I bet something horrible is going to happen when everything is almost coming together lmfao THINGS ARE WORKING OUT SUSPICIOUSLY WELL.


So all the artist alley talk made me want to draw my next piece with consideration to public reception, something I rarely do, and I’ve decided that I should do something that’s more on the soft and pretty side since those kind of prints sold well but the pieces I have that fit in that category are really old/not well done. Maybe I am disabled in this area or something because I tried for like 2 days and couldn’t draw up something decent that fits the category. Usually when I start on a new drawing without a clear image in mind, I draw a figure and let it grow/change on its own until I reach something I like. Sometimes the final image has nothing to do with what I had started with. In this case all of my attempts ended up as sad/angry pictures… LOL I DONT KNOW HOW THIS IS POSSIBLE BECAUSE I START THEM ALL WITH FLOWERS AND FLOWY DRESSES AND WAVY HAIR IN MIND ): I think I’m just going to give up and do what I do best

livestream from today; I failed for like 40 minutes and erased 2 shitty sketches before giving up the whole pretty drawing thing and worked on this abomination instead. click for fullview

and here are 2 of the failures from yesterday. Usually artists only post presentable pictures but I’ve always thought I should let people know the truth about my art, that not everything I do works out effortlessly and works out nicely. The second one was as happy as things got but it’s not very soft/pretty since it’s just going to be a mountain of books. the first one was just tragic LMAO I was drawing in disbelief that what was supposed to be a happy picture turned into a fucking cross over a grave.

Creepy ro art

is she even a priest anymore HAHAH. While I drew the eyes I thought to myself “hey they totally look like a bunch of creepy vaginas” so I thought some BLOODY TEARS WOULD HELP CLEAR THAT UP <:

The cross wasn’t supposed to be evil but I wasn’t in the mood of drawing straight lines and just wanna scribble away, so it got destroyed… As I was drawing it I kinda grew on it and developed it some more. It shapes like many crosses and can change its shape to look like a sword, shield, bow etc. The crosses intertwine with each other and can look like a net from afar if they expand enough, so I decided to name it “tenroe”, the first 2 characters from this phrase (can’t type chinese on this blog ): ), which means a net that encompasses the sky and earth, or something you can’t escape!

I drew the sketch last week and then FORGOT ABOUT IT TIL YESTERDAY LOL… so I decided to take a break from manga drawing and finish this. Interestingly enough I’m still pretty into drawing manga even though I’ve basically been doing this mon-sun nonstop for 1-2 months. If I have to attribute it it’s probably because I’m juggling 2 mangas that I haven’t gotten sick of drawing either one yet. That and I’m learning a ton from drawing the super secret project since it is a new medium, and I have to work with subjects that I’m totally not familiar with drawing so every new page is fun. well ok aside from drawing buildings… i cann0t deal with spending 1 day per building

In other news, this happened: